Hilary's Journal

Thursday, December 01, 2005 9:06 PM
Subject: journal entry

Hey! Sorry it's been so long, but doctor visits are absolutely insane right now. I've had seven appointments this week already and will have at least one every weekday until the thirtieth of December. ICK. So many things have popped up and you can look at those in the medical updates. It seems as though when one thing happens, everything else decides they want to happen too.

I'm not saying just bad things are happening. Like Canon, for instance. Wow. Finally! I am SO happy that they got liver for him and it's the right size and he's recovering like crazy! Or my aunt, Ann. She's gone from doctors telling her she's gonna die that night and four weeks later she's walking around by herself and eating Thanksgiving dinner! It's amazing what God can do, huh? Science isn't always right. Through all of this, good and bad, I think me, along with innumerable other people, have seen God in a totally different perspective. I mean, yeah, I always knew He's the Big Guy and He can do ANYTHING, we all know that. But to see it actually playing out in my life, in Canon's life, in your life, it just makes all the stories we've been taught so many times in bible class or church service seem so much more REAL.

Like David and Goliath-- David was so young and small with nothing for protection and Goliath was HUGE with armies and armies of men and weapons. David had nothing. Nothing but God. Even though Goliath had all the 'man-power', and THINGS that you need to win a fight, David had God, the only THING/PERSON/BEING that can really win the battle. In my life, I'm David; All these problems add up to the huge Goliath and all of his armies and weapons; But, guess what? I have God on my side. I may not have any weapons or shields or armies (well, prayer and family and medicines are certainly powerful weapons), but I have God. I know that eventually I will get that little stone and hit Goliath in the right spot. I know that eventually I will be able to put all of this behind me and have a somewhat normal life. It may be sooner that later and it may not, but I know that it will eventually happen with God on my side. He has the power to make it all better right now, and that's what I really want. But He also has the power to drag it out as long as He wants and have me maybe touch just one more person to add to his infinite kingdom. It's amazing how it works, isn't it?

Well, the never-ending stack of homework beckons me from the kitchen table, so ta-ta for now!


Hilary


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