Hilary's Journal
Thursday, December 01, 2005 9:06 PM
Subject: journal entry
Hey! Sorry it's been so long, but doctor visits are absolutely insane right
now. I've had seven appointments this week already and will have at least
one every weekday until the thirtieth of December. ICK. So many things
have popped up and you can look at those in the medical updates. It seems
as though when one thing happens, everything else decides they want to
happen too.
I'm not saying just bad things are happening. Like Canon, for
instance. Wow. Finally! I am SO happy that they got liver for him and
it's the right size and he's recovering like crazy! Or my aunt, Ann. She's
gone from doctors telling her she's gonna die that night and four weeks
later she's walking around by herself and eating Thanksgiving dinner! It's
amazing what God can do, huh? Science isn't always right. Through all of
this, good and bad, I think me, along with innumerable other people, have
seen God in a totally different perspective. I mean, yeah, I always knew
He's the Big Guy and He can do ANYTHING, we all know that. But to see it
actually playing out in my life, in Canon's life, in your life, it just
makes all the stories we've been taught so many times in bible class or
church service seem so much more REAL.
Like David and Goliath-- David was
so young and small with nothing for protection and Goliath was HUGE with
armies and armies of men and weapons. David had nothing. Nothing but God.
Even though Goliath had all the 'man-power', and THINGS that you need to win
a fight, David had God, the only THING/PERSON/BEING that can really win the
battle. In my life, I'm David; All these problems add up to the huge
Goliath and all of his armies and weapons; But, guess what? I have God on my
side. I may not have any weapons or shields or armies (well, prayer and
family and medicines are certainly powerful weapons), but I have God. I
know that eventually I will get that little stone and hit Goliath in the
right spot. I know that eventually I will be able to put all of this behind
me and have a somewhat normal life. It may be sooner that later and it may
not, but I know that it will eventually happen with God on my side. He has
the power to make it all better right now, and that's what I really want.
But He also has the power to drag it out as long as He wants and have me
maybe touch just one more person to add to his infinite kingdom. It's
amazing how it works, isn't it?
Well, the never-ending stack of homework
beckons me from the kitchen table, so ta-ta for now!
Hilary
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