Chandra's Journal

July 12, 2006

Today I sing to you baby
With tears in my eyes
Happy Birthday sweet angel
Up there in the sky

Five years have gone by
But now it feels like a day
As I sit and still wonder
Why it must be this way

You would be starting school,
Kindergarten, this year
We would have been shopping
As the first day draws near

Pencils and crayons
Backpacks and clothes
You could wear your favorite dress
And that sparkly bow

You would kiss us goodbye
And wave from the door
And then bravely turn your back
A new world to explore

These daydreams, however,
Are only for me
For you have all the knowledge
That you’ll ever need

The peace and protection
Of a Heavenly home
The love of a Savior
Who sits on a throne

And as I remind myself
Of the place where you live
I wonder if perhaps
A small favor you’d give

For when I blow out five candles
The truth takes me aback
You have naught to wish for
For there’s nothing you lack

So perhaps you could help me
By approaching the King
For your family, would you wish for
All of these things

For your Daddy, ask for strength
To weather long days
And still have the energy
To come home and play

Your daddy is tough
Those boys often are
But with well placed gentleness
God will take him far

For Canon, your brother,
Our own miracle story
Ask God to give him patience
That he might bring Him glory

For we’re all finding out
That it’s hard to be two
He just wants to do what
He just wants to do!

But Canon, like everyone
Who lives on this planet,
Must learn how to share
Even when he can’t stand it

For our sweet baby Creed
Would you ask God for safety
He’s so curious and quick
That I’m a basket case lately!

Ask God to protect him from things
That would cause him harm
So he can learn and explore
Without fright and alarm

And for me, my sweet Amberly,
Would you ask for one thing?
That God pull me closer
Up under His wing

I’m tired and worried
About so much these days
And I just want to rest
For a moment in the shade

And learn from Him
Secrets to helping these I adore
That we all might grow closer
To each other and the Lord

I want to be with you
Every day is the same
I want to hear your voice
Calling my name

Mommy, I’m hungry
Mommy, I’m scared
Mommy, I love you
Mommy, I shared

Mommy, I think of you, too
Even way up here
But I’m so happy
I don’t get tired or have tears

I do get to play a lot
You know some of my friends
And Daddy, I know how to play lots of sports
And we all always win!

I will make my birthday wish
For all of you, it’s true
And when you look up and the sky
Is that hot July blue

I want you to smile
Because it really won’t be that long
And we’ll all be together
And you can sing me my birthday song

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR AMBERLY,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!